ALL THE DIFFERENCE

So there’s a Chinese funeral happening diagonally opposite my block, and it happens to be the most jubilant funeral I have ever come across. For one, there is a massive Karaoke session rocking out there right not. Somehow, these people have gotten their hands on some hardcore high-quality surround system that makes it sound as if they are singing right into my ear. The music is pretty good too, as far as Chinese karaoke goes, with Chinese orchestral instrumentals and all that jazz er-hu. The singing is actually in-tune, and goes in time with the instrumentals. Perhaps the person who passed on was a member of some Karaoke interest group that performed now and then.

All this wouldn’t be so bad if I weren’t trying to do some intense, high-powered studying for my Finance paper tonight. Welcome to the heartlands.

Do you know how many girls out there are posting about their eating disorders, and beating themselves up for consuming too many calories in a day? There’s so many of them looking for group support to starve together, and work towards the perfect thin body-type. It goes beyond the normal girl-angst about cutting slack while on a diet, or about putting on a few pounds round the hips. I read through the first few pages of #pro ana tags and I can’t go on… these posts, are more than destructive.

How can we teach people to love themselves for who they are in the present, and not who they think they can make themselves to be in the future?

I have been reading my blog entries of yesteryear at my old blog, and comparing myself to then… honestly these days I have been such a lazy blob. First of all, I can hardly get myself to write. Especially with tumblr - where you can have the options of updating-but-not-really (i.e. reblogging) or putting up miniposts (i.e. quotes, photos, links and the like). It’s innovative, really, but it kills the writer in me. Or perhaps, my senses have been so deadened from scrolling through countless sites that I can’t bring myself to type. Honestly, sometimes I am also far too lazy to sign in (!!!) - and this is insanely unforgivable because all I have to do is to type in the first letter of my email address & Autofill auto-fills in the rest. I blame social media, style blogs, online retailers & my tendency to get easily distracted. 

But I resolve to write more… and I am thinking of trying to keep up an active & constantly-updated blog/site/whatchamacallit again. 

Soon.

Anyhows, I am staving off the online retail sites … they are really distracting & make me want to spend unnecessarily. But for the record, I so want this. And if I buy this I can stop shopping can be happy.

Yeah right.

Okay, self-control please kick in now.

One, I have bagged 2 free tickets to Spring Awakening. Did you know that if you spend a minimum of $58 and show your student pass to the Customer Service Counter, you are entitled to 2 complimentary tickets? So I’m going with my bro next Saturday for the matinee show; is that awesome or what. See, it pays to read.

Two, Cooling Off Day with Nigel & Weng Keong in 2 Saturdays time and I think I can’t wait?

Three, somehow did not feel drawn to Wicked at all. When the advertisements first came out, I was pretty gung-ho about it. But as time went on… bleh.

Four, play-hunting for March/April resumes.

I don’t feel like it’s time to put my consciousness and my conscience on hold just yet. I don’t want to lie down and lose my thoughts to restful oblivion. I want to toy with them, play out scenarios in my head and how I’d react to them. I want to go out, use all this energy I have inside, and do something… alive. I need to act again, perhaps. Or at least start by writing a script. And maybe start reading, cooking, baking. Maybe I need to get my great entrepreneurial idea out of my fears, put down in text, kick started and translated into real financial returns (after all the overheads and risks, of course). Oh yes and there’s that article that I’ve been wanting to pen, and that novel that I’ve conceptualised but have yet to think up of any solid content to fill up with…

There’s so many things to do other than sleeping. But I am a student and school goes on. My ideas, hopes, fears and anxieties will have to wait.

1. The Descendants
   George Clooney + Golden Globe = Must Watch 
2. My Week With Marilyn
   I’ve been eyeing this is November last year; did you know they pushed back the Singapore release date twice?! From December to January to Feb, I think.
3. The Lady
   The political history and situation of Myanmar has a special place in my heart, ever since I wrote my A-Level H3 paper on the country’s role in ASEAN. So, a movie on “ASSK” (as I abbreviated her name in my paper)? Though I’m not crazy over Michelle Yeoh, I still want to watch this please.

I’m aiming for $6 weekday student-priced shows @ Cathay Cineplexes; anyone interested?